A day has 24 hours…and some say that is a long time and some say that it is too short… I say that it depends on what you are doing.. I can’t believe that in a few months or so I will be a junior and soon a senior.. and I learned as a college student time flies especially fast for us.. and it is scary.. and since it is now May.. I thought about last summer when I just finished freshmen year and now I just finished sophomore year.. last summer I never thought that it would be an unforgettable one with relatives that passed away.. I really do not hope and pray that I would not experience that this summer.. because as a lot of my close friends know.. I was really depressed and emotional.. I couldn’t control myself when schools started again.. even though I don’t know what will happen this summer, all I can say is that I leave it up to God.. what ever he plans for me is how it is.. all I have to say is that I can’t believe that it will be a year since my uncle passed away which was in August.. I really can’t believe it.. I will always remember that day because it was the day after an earthquake hit the state.. and everyone was freaking out about it on the news the next morning… and that morning all my relatives and family cried.. I would always remember that day and remember my relatives told me about moments before my uncle’s death.. and I have to say even though the griefing period I can say is over for me.. but I can say that it will take not only a winter break for me to heal but years.. it seems over but the truth is when it hits me again.. it seems that it’s just the beginning..
My friends graduated few hours ago! They should be celebrating with their families right now.. I am so proud of them! They have finished a chapter in their life and ready to be in the real world. I am really sad that I could not be there for them and just really sad that they are gone. They are off the hill and I won’t be able to see them around campus anymore or even see them in classes just walking around.. I’m going to miss seeing their face around.. and seeking advices from them.. but I guess I have to say everyone has to go through this stage.. and I just have to mature up and plus they are not out of my life or something.. I’m going to keep in touch with them.. If I was there today i would really cry.. even though it is a joyous day, but I cannot stop my mind from thinking the first time I met them.. and just memories that goes through my mind.. I really cannot forget them.. I will cherish these memories forever.. and friendships that are really hard to find.. I’m happy that they are part of my undergraduate journey and I believe that there would be more coming.. but I have to let go and stop being an immature child.. hahhaa I feel like a child that lost her siblings but the truth is that they are not gone at all.. they are off the hill.. every time when I go to my friends graduation.. I picture my own graduation.. when it is my turn.. anyways Congrats to Class of 2012..
Everyone has been there or accomplish these goals.. Going to elementary school then middle school and then high school.. When you get to high school you would study really hard and do a lot of extra curricular activities and if you make survive all that and took the SAT and got good grades then you wait for the acceptance letters which you’ve been waiting for your whole life just to go to a good college and when you get to college you believe that you can start fresh and find people that have the same goals like you and find your friends and then you start thinking about your major and if you are lucky you might find your other half in college and then you will probably work in the field that you want and get married and have a family.. All of these steps are so important that it’s like you reached another level in life or what’s called life…its like a goal that makes you feel successful or you accomplish something.. I just feel that’s what concerns a lot of people.. Even when someone is sick or not doing well they might ask about marriage or even dreaming about it knowing that they won’t be able to… I just feel like writing about this because I’ve been watching k-drama that have happy endings with couples getting married and some hospital dramas too… Even if we all accomplish these goals but our health is not well we can’t accomplish them or even care about them anymore because at the end of the day health is what helps people function..
I went to the market with my parents today and I passed by a lot of snacks and drinks that all have stories in them.. I thought about my friends.. how I would stay up with one of my friends on the hill and eat them.. and just chat.. haha Ever since senior year of high school I love to think about the past a lot! Even now.. I think more about it.. why? I always wonder.. is it because I missed them or I just want to go back in time to change some things? I guess I miss the past.. is that one of the reasons why I chose history as my major? sort of not really hahah but I believe that without the past.. some things would not turn out the way they are today and plus I want to learn more about my roots… that’s one of the most important reasons.. but in the market I see so many kids and babies!! They are all so adorable! Some remind me of my old self.. there was a kid talking to his dad in Mandarin begging him to buy this tempura flour lol I was like that and I believe that everyone had that experience when they were younger..and I passed by a baby! He was soooo cute! I wanted to take a picture of him.. but then he suddenly cried.. I was like what? Why? My dad told me that, he didn’t like how nobody paid attention to him… so cute though! So precious!!
I went back to visit my high school! hahah While I was waiting for my friend I took some pictures.. and all of these are memories.. the bus stop..I’ve been waiting at that bus stop since I was in third grade until high school? hahhaa This circular building is a church.. and nobody owns it anymore but in there I would hid there when it rains and snow.. or just too sunny with my mom.. and sometimes I would stand there for hours.. and then the elementary school that I went to.. I have to say.. my elementary, middle, and high school are very close and I can’t believe that they are all close to each other… and yet each filled with unhappy memories.. I cannot forget the teachers that treated and embarrassed me in class, but middle and high school.. I had people that bullied me there and just cannot believe that I am going to be a junior in a few months.. and time really flies so fast that I cannot believe that junior year is going to be coming up soon! ahhh! My high school teachers cannot believe that either.. they all said that so you guys are half way done right? haha it’s just weird.. I have always wonder if I would ever stay in Boston after college.. that’s what I’ve always been thinking about.. and today.. I saw a limo filled with high school students going to prom… hahaa so exciting! lol It’s like so weird.. two years ago.. I was still in high school.. and now that I graduated.. it’s just interesting..but my point is that.. all my childhood memories.. they are all concentrated in that same exact area.. it’s like I can’t escape from it..
I am officially done with my sophomore year today! I cannot believe that sophomore year ends today.. I really cannot believe it…I learned so much this year with school, friends, emotionally and just family wise.. everything in life.. well my friends I found them! hahaha I can say that because I did.. and I’m happy about that.. everything just worked out.. and I didn’t have to worry about it.. I was scared about my roommate but apparently it, she is the awesomest one that I cannot complain about.. also I have actually did so many crazy things this year.. for example going to parties, making videos, and just enjoying college life.. and attended a lot of plays on campus.. I did not do any of those things last year.. I was not ready for it.. I realize that the people around me are really confident.. some too confident or even makes me feel that they just look down on me.. not saying that we are not friends anymore.. but just weird.. I love confident people but people who are too confident are just full of themselves.. at the same time I think all of us have grown more mature.. it’s just interesting to see the changes in all my friends including myself..but in general I have found myself this year.. I was really lost first semester because of family problems but found my usual self again second semester.. I thought I would not be able to survive sophomore year! aaaa and I did! I am happy that sophomore year has ended today and just weird for me because last year I had my last final on the last day of finals and if that happened to me this year I would be studying right now and not relaxing! aaa
I watched Sent of Woman again! I know.. I watched this K-drama last year and I’m suppose to be doing my homework right now.. but I’m not! lol.. and study for my last final.. well i decided to slack a bit.. I have to say.. this movie really inspires me, even though it is a depressing drama, but just makes me realize about the things that I should care in life and just live life to the fullest.. I know. why do I need a drama to tell me these messages? Who does that you may say.. Well sometimes.. people just don’t pay attention or think about these things because it never really occurred to them.. I have to say.. I never really thought about death when I was in elementary school or middle school until high school.. when my grandfather passed away.. I just couldn’t believe that people would just leave like that.. that was really when I woke up.. and I started to think deeply about everything even though my grandfather passed away.. I didn’t really get to talk to him or express how much he means to me.. that’s why when my senior friends received the letters,cards, and saw the video.. I really want to show and tell them how much they mean to me.. even if some of them won’t think of me this way but I really want to express it to them.. so they would know.. you know? I care about them.. I luv them lots! I just feel like if one doesn’t express how much they love to a person..they would not know.. even if actions may show.. but that person might not receive that message! The song that plays throughout the drama called You are so beautiful by Junsu.. is really a beautiful and sad song.. but I really love love this song.. sometimes I feel that this song expresses how I feel at the moment or maybe not even..
Today was the last day of classes for my sophomore year.. I am not officially done yet until I take my finals.. but anyways I am just really happy that today is the last day of classes.. I get to sleep more! That also means that my senior friends are living in a couple of weeks.. they all said that it feels weird to have your last class ever.. and not be a student anymore.. sophomore year was filled a lot of good things and bad things.. bad things would just be family problems.. and decisions that I made.. and good things? My friendship with others have become stronger.. I’m really happy about that.. I cannot believe that sophomore year is coming to an end and junior year is coming.. and it will fly by! I know it and believe it..
Yesterday.. was a very special day.. my friends that I thought couldn’t make it still came..I love them! Even though some did not come because they forgot or even just too busy.. so I understand.. and I’m happy that one of my friends made it.. he’s lole I’ll make it no matter what.. I haven’t heard that for a long time from any of my friends… some of my friend left early because they had to watch one of their friend’s performance and they had meetings.. so I’m happy that at least they came.. and that all matters.. I didn’t really care if the other people I invited who did not help me with the project did not come.. because what matters to me are the people that helped and who are the stars of this video.. so that meant a lot to me… it’s so funny how all the people that came.. majority were girls! hahahahaha At the end.. my friend and his girlfriend.. gave me a little note.. and a little pocket book? I don’t know what you call it.. but I’m plaaning to put my journal inside of that little thing! I can’t wait till this year to end… junior year and one more year to go.. but this coming year will fly faster.. I believe.. hahaha anyways.. I was really shy.. haha I was like..aaa… they were like you should vlog like kevjumba and them.. well even though I’m not that camera shy that does not mean I would want the world to know about my personal life and stuff.. that is too much.. I would rather meet someone and know them in person instead of letting some stranger watch those vlog and think that they know me.. just by watching those videos.. man.. I don’t think I can do that.. Before the viewing.. I was like will I cry?? I didn’t until.. my friend hugged me and said I was crazy!.. in a good way.. lol.. but I was felt the tears in my eyes.. but still like suck it in.. so it won’t fall.. hahha but I’m fortunate to come to a school where I was able to find friends/mentors that shape my undergrad journey.. I feel blessed.. and thankful!
I love this anime so much!!! I watched it!!! I remembered why I loved it so much because it reminded me how much I yearn for a friend that I could tell him or her everything and just be myself.. whether if I’m sad or happy.. I just didn’t want a friend that would feel bothered.. I cried when I watched this again.. I guess I really want a friend like Touru … spelled her name wrong.. but she looks at everything so positively and I really wished I could meet a friend like her.. and I asked myself if I found a friend like her yet and I have.. but I really want to show a lot of people my true self.. where is it? how is it different from how people normally see me?
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Cheesey Mushroom Pull Apart Bread
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tis the season to be jolly (:
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I don’t tell you my problems because I want to nag it to someone. I tell you because I want your comfort. You use to want me to say anything because...
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CYI October Retreat!
It’s been awhile since most of CYI has been together so, on October 9th CYI got to go on a one day retreat at none other than...
